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[Oct. 19th, 2004|03:38 pm] |
yo what up lj sluts. i'm finally going to a neurologist on friday morning. i'm scurred, i don't know what's gonna happen. i'd hate to find out that i'm permenantly fucked.
our band is going great. everyone in it is awesome. i've noticed a steep decline in shitty people trying to talk to me online and call me at home. which i'm very proud of. i think the internet is just bad for some people. it gives them the balls to say things that they wouldn't normally say in real life. oh well, have fun in your fantasy land children. |
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[Oct. 13th, 2004|06:09 am] |
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look you are insane. ok . a crazy person doesn't think they're crazy though right. you should be in a hospital. |
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[Oct. 2nd, 2004|09:49 am] |
alright look, eric berret, your a cool guy, seriously i like you but i think your friends are shitty. i don't talk shit about you or anyone man i am going through a lot of bad shit right now. i have brain damage and i am slowly dying. and i don't think it's cool that your friend andy thinks that this is funny. i seriously hope you or anyone else never has to go through this. i don't have a lot of time and i don't want to spend it arguing with people. there's not gonna be a fight. you guys are fucked up plain and simple. matt bullock: your pathetic quit calling my girlfriend. andy oh god i hope you have a nice life, you should learn how to treat people better though. sarah muller; i will give you your money when i have it, .
please, i am dying i'm not fucking joking around. just quit making things worse. |
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| the totally awesome skulls crew---- |
[Sep. 28th, 2004|03:22 pm] |
you know those motorcycle gangs in the greaser days, it seems to me that each premise was generally that these people would try and intimidate the square or good kids. cuz they were demon outcasts of cookiecutter society. now here's where i get boggled, the skulls crew (i guess they must be skeletons or something) are trying to embody this persona, by throwing punches in a dark room. i don't know where it came from, or how it got here but i suppose it has something to do with your alcohol problems.
randomly talking shit to people is what highschool kids do, now your not in highschool still are you? oh there's no talking sense into people when they are that far gone. you gotta get em when their young or they turn into distguisting human beings.
fucking little kids. i would love if someone just shot you in the face. i would laugh and laugh and laugh and laugh and laugh. please try to grow up. |
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[Sep. 25th, 2004|12:52 pm] |
i was just reading some old emails that i have not seen and i people are really fucked up man. that is why i'm deleting my livejournal. i'm surprised at the ammount of people who are GLAD that i have brain damage.
poof, i'm gone. |
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[Sep. 25th, 2004|12:39 pm] |
so last night was supposed to be my birthday party, but no one showed up. and i mean no one. even sarah had other plans. this hurt my feelings immensly although i'm going to pretend it didn't.
i feel like i'm dying. i'm frightened. |
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[Sep. 24th, 2004|03:10 pm] |
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i just saw brandy at the quick trip, she is one of the nicest people i've ever met.
last night chris moore won this little comedy showcase at baja tilly's. he was awesome. i think he's got a real career in doing this shit.
i just got health-insurance bling. i didn't see that one coming. now i can go to a neurologist, i'm so happy. i hope this will be the turning of the tide for me.
to SOH:
thanks for ruining my birthday party which is supposed to be tonight. we were going to play a set and have a party but once again we've been duped by you asshole little kids. i would like it very much if you kids didn't show up at my house anymore, kell doesn't live there anymore. so get get high and headbang elsewhere and without our equipment. . . fuck off. |
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| happy b day to me |
[Sep. 23rd, 2004|03:34 pm] |
last night i actually convinced myself i had had a stroke. but after further investigation i only have one or two of the symptoms so i'm trying to write this off as being a hypocondriach (i think)
i turn 21 in five days i'm depressed. very depressed. i don't think i've ever been this sad before. it's strange. i never thought my life would be like this. if it wasn't for sarah i would have given up already.
tomorrow i have to try and get health insurance, but i don't think that's going to go very well. if i don't get it i'm fucked. i think people should have the right to know what's wrong with them. in canada everyone has free health insurance i think i have to move there. i can't go on like this.
you know that part in that pie movie where they guy stabs his brain, that's what it feels like. |
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| i don't like people |
[Sep. 19th, 2004|01:34 pm] |
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man the library gets crazy on sunday's, there's like a horde of people waiting to get it in. and then at 1:30 everyone just piles in and rushes for the computers even though more than half of them are free.
so i found out there is no way i can get medical insurance since i live with my parents. so i guess i'm just gonna try and get a job long enough until the insurance kicks in so i can go to a neurologist.
i turn 21 in ten days i think, were not playing a show cuz my band is a bunch of flakes. but not the kind of flakes your used to, the kind of flakes that invented the word flake. fuckin frustrating. oh well. i'm just gonna have a nice quiet birthday cake session at my house next weekend maybe.
late. |
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[Sep. 16th, 2004|02:51 pm] |
everyone who would like to hear my band, go to our myspace account and you can hear a song. and if you can't find it.
the way
thesunshinetribe@yahoo.com |
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[Sep. 15th, 2004|11:55 pm] |
last night i woke up and my brain felt like it was hemoraging, every time i moved my senses were delayed. and when they finally registered it sent me into a frantic panic. every touch echos throughout my whole body in a very very frightening way. my left arm went completely numb and i thought i was having a stroke.
then today i called my mom and she told me she had a dream last night that i was going to my dead grandmother and aunt. i was on a plane and i was telling people i had to leave and go to them. this fucking scared the shit out of me because my mom is psychic. severely psychic. i'm scared out of my mind.
tomorrow i have to try and go get on ahccss so i can go to a neurologist. but i doubt they are going to help me.
i wish sarah was here. i miss her. if i happen to just die suddenly then i want all of you to know that i love you, even if i hate you i still love you, life is too precious to fight with people. and sometimes it's shorter than you think. don't waste it, it's the greatest gift you'll ever get. |
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| mmmm i just took a sweet shower. |
[Sep. 14th, 2004|12:44 pm] |
super band practice today, i hope my brain holds it together. i hate to brag but our band is so good. i think i'm gonna be famous soon. we created our own style and it's so sweet. we got cp back, well he never left but he did disappear. also we have a new band member, he goes by the name of jess daniels and he's playin guitar. i can't wait to practice.
i hope sarah gets to spend the night tonight.444444444444444444444444444
that will be sweet. |
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[Sep. 13th, 2004|11:20 pm] |
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i think my head is getting better, but then i had a fever and it made it feel shitty again. ahh it sucks. |
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| arrest this man |
[Sep. 12th, 2004|01:29 pm] |
i fucking try and try and try to just forget about the people i used to know, i thought i had made my peace and wanted to quietly walk away, but something keeps tugging on my sleeve.
people tell me it's just that i'm so charismatic that you either have to love me or hate me. i don't get it.
all of you are pathetic excuses for human beings, try for a second to realize that fighting breeds contempt which turns into fighting. and the cycle goes round and round and round and round and round and round and round and round and round and round and round and round and round and round and round and round until someone says i'll be the bigger person and walk away. there's a reason why that saying holds true throughout time, anyone can start a fight it's soooo simple, but try not starting a fight that's a lot harder. LAZY FUCKS.
and that person will always be me. |
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[Sep. 11th, 2004|01:00 pm] |
i always get a little teary-eyed on 9-11, it makes me want to go out and do something for my country. this land i love. maybe i will join the army, i'd like to kill some people in middle-eastern countries. sieg heil (ring any bells) it's so simple, it starts with a whisper, then it's gossip, then panic, and the next thing you know you've found a scapegoat. but who perpetrated the whisper? i don't think it could be pinpointed to any one person, the new theory i'm working with is that the devil is behind all of this, and in theory it's true. so let's blame it all on him, ok. the devil is just an emotion really, all of the devious things that human beings do can be attributed to their dark side, and all of the good that comes of human beings come from the light, or god. so in conclusion i think the united states army should attack hell. get right to the root of the problem, then we wouldn't have to kill people anymore. see see see!!!!
that's why you should vote for me for the house of representatives, so we can defeat satan together.
martinez in 04' (R) |
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[Sep. 9th, 2004|08:04 pm] |
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i need some new friends, i'm awfully lonely. |
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[Sep. 9th, 2004|08:02 pm] |
somehow i got a cold, i need chicken soup :(
i have not had a cigarette in like 4 hours, i need to quit smoking, someone save me. please. |
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[Sep. 7th, 2004|02:13 pm] |
subtitles needs a serious drummer.
help me take over the world.
thesunshinetribe@yahoo.com |
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| silly immature vain scenester fuckers |
[Sep. 6th, 2004|09:14 pm] |
just leave her alone she's broken inside. it's just the internet. they are pathetic fools, dillusions of grandeur, extremely vain and self-centered.
i have heard a lot of fucked up things in my life, but saying that your glad that someone has brain damage is the most ignorant thing i've ever heard anyone say. i don't care who it is, i wouldn't wish this on anyone. not even evil people like sarah muller and her boyfriend pinochio.
i love my friends. you guys are awesome.
and katy if you see this- her boyfriend said that to ME.
PLEASE JUST GO AWAY YOU ARE POISON TO ME. GET ON WITH YOUR LIFE. A LITTLE RESENTMENT CAN GO A LONG WAY. |
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